Just Go For It
2017. This is the year. The year that I am just going for it. Scary? Yes! Exciting? Yes! Clarity? no!
Ok, what? Yes I know it sounds weird, but let me tell you how many times I have prayed for clarity on a situation, clarity on a friendship, clarity on a decision, clarity on the house, clarity on the neighborhood, clarity on the school, clarity on a job, clarity on starting something...you get my drift. I have done my fair share of praying for God to just speak LOUD and clear to me. I want God to show me exactly what to do and when to do it. And when I can't hear him, I call my mom. Anyone, else?...
And then I read this familiar story about Mother Teresa....
When the brilliant ethicist John Kavanaugh went to work for three months at “the house of the dying” in Calcutta, he was seeking a clear answer as to how best to spend the rest of his life. On the first morning there he met Mother Teresa. She asked, “And what can I do for you?” Kavanaugh asked her to pray for him.
“What do you want me to pray for?” she asked. He voiced the request that he had borne thousands of miles from the United States: “Pray that I have clarity.”
She said firmly, “No, I will not do that.” When he asked her why, she said, “Clarity is the last thing you are clinging to and must let go of.” When Kavanaugh commented that she always seemed to have the clarity he longed for, she laughed and said, “I have never had clarity; what I have always had is trust. So I will pray that you trust God.”
Ok, so maybe I have had it all wrong all this time. I don't really need to pray for clarity, I need to pray for TRUST. Trust in the major life defining decisions is the easy part but trust in little things, now that I could work on. I mean I believe He is the mighty God, but do my actions really show my belief? Do I worry? Do I fret? ...or do I remember that our mighty God is good. He refreshes my soul. He fills me up. He loves me so. I am his child...and so with that I am putting my trust in Him and putting on my big girl panties as I take off on this ride...so here we go blog, and here we go leading Bible study, EEK just writing that is scary and exciting, and sweet, local friends come join me!
I pray that we will TRUST, and when we are tempted to pray for clarity to remember the wise Mother Teresea.